My Christmas

It was a lonely Christmas..a silent Christmas..with nobody but myself.
Kind of sad and horrible, right?
This is my first Christmas without my family around me.
I don't really want to talk about my Christmas because I will feel sad.
But really, Christmas is such a momentous celebration for everyone, the time when the baby was born, the baby that came to save us!
It's a time for family gathering, and It's a time to repent, it's a time for us to start everything all over again.
Back in my country, Christmas celebration might not be as special as it is in the United States or other Christian countries. Not all the family in Indonesia are celebrating Christmas, but in the United States, almost all the family are celebrating Christmas. Isn't that cool?
In the beginning of December, people have started decorating and shopping for Christmas!
I have never seen a house without a Christmas tree and decoration!
and I really love them..
:)
I wish I will have a white Christmas next time! it will be wonderful to see the falling snow during Christmas.
Moreover, Americans have many traditions during Christmas. For instance, the tradition of exchange gift. Everyone in the house will get Christmas gifts from the member of the family, also during the Christmas, people will have to eat pie.
It's kind of unique for me. I have always love American's house!
a nice, neat and good position. I hope I will own a house soon
LOL
again, Merry Christmas!
love,
lien

Time to write again!

Finally, finally, finally..
I got to do something this holiday! not wasting my time by sleeping and doing nothing:(
too bad so sad!
this is my first entry since last August.
I have been busy with school and my activities till i did not have time for blogging
I miss my past routine though.
Time really flies,huh?
It's been about four months since I arrived in the United States.
I have learned so much things and gained so much of experience within four months.
hahhahaha..you might doubt me! I will try to share about what I have learned about the life in the United States.
I think the people in the United States are unique, are't they?

anyway...Merry Christmas for everyone!
may the joy and peace of the Lord be with you guys always.

take care! see you soon in my next entry

HOMESICK

Making a call was the first thing stopped in my mind. I have to tell my family that I have reached Fresno because I believe they were worried about me. So I lent a phone to make a call to ce ria. She said she will be picking me up around 7pm. I was so glad. She is my hero, without her I really don’t know what I should do? Where should I go? How to get there? She picked me up and we had a dinner in down town burger restaurant. The burger was jumbo even I did not order the big one, as what people always say “everything in America is big” so do not order the large one, just take the regular size.

I could not wait to make a call. So I text ed them by using ce ria hand phone. I got to know that I have to pay a roaming if I send and receive a text message, and I have to pay if want to make or receive a call. Seem so materialistic right? We have to pay everything and the tax is around 9% for Fresno. I chose prepaid T-mobile and I did shop some foods in order to survive in few days. Back home, all I wanted to do was just call my family and ceku. I was so fed up because I could not get online as well. It was just so frustrating. It took a long time to get my number being activated and I guess I will not able to do that without my roommate hand. Thanks ce Reni.

With a desperate feeling, finally I called back home. I was crying because I just could not stand anymore. I never meant to drop my tears but it was uncontrollable, I was so happy that I could hear their voice from thousand of thousand miles away. It was just wonderful because I have been missing them even I just away for less than 3 days. Moreover, I miss ceku a lot. It’s hurt me because I can feel how far the distance between us. I did not call ceku, I just texted him because I did not dare to cry again. I have to be strong, cheering myself.

The next day, I went to church with ce ria and Hacer in the morning. That was great; because I could go to church once I reached Fresno. You know what? I realized how different America compares to Asia, from the living style, foods, tradition and many other things. But one thing I found the same is the church, where I found peacefulness in my heart, where I feel like I am home. Jesus is with me. I should not scared, I should not cry, I should be thanked Him because He always with me, I am not alone.

Ceku and Achin will be having on Tuesday. I prayed for them, wishing them all the best. Ceku called me that day after he came back from library. I was so happy. I think around 5 days after I arrived then only I could do video call with him. I feel like I have not seen him for 5 years! The first video call that we had was like a SPECIAL treatment for my desperation. How precious was the time that we had together! You know what? I wish I can meet ceku even for just a while right now. At least we still can see and talk to each other even for just for half an hour every day. Moreover, what I should do all the time is just say thank you to Jesus. We still can be together while we are apart. That’s good enough for me.

how precious was that time...

Alien da fresno

Finally I have gone through my first week in Fresno. I arrived on the 16th of August 2008. I was exciting, nervous; all the ridiculous thoughts were in my mind until today. Yet, still I could not believe that I AM IN AMERICA right now. Everything was like a dream for me, and now it’s true. When I stepped down my feet in San Francisco, I wanted to shout out to the world and to myself that AMERICA here I AM! I was carrying two big suitcases and 3 hand bags and I got to continue my last flight to Fresno. It was my first experience travelling thousand miles away from home alone. Spending more than 24 hours to reach the destination; sitting on the huge plane, waiting for the boarding time, watching and listening to the air FM, reading the purpose driven life, and talking to the person beside me. After been through all of that, something terrible was happened in San Francisco. We have to pass the strict security check and custom clearance otherwise we will never be allowed to enter United State. I even had to take out my shoes and my scarf to the boxes. Everything was fine, but my stuffs were split and it was heavy! I reminded myself not to forget to check my stuffs completely when I leave to make sure that everything was clear. this photo was taken in Nari ta Japan (the lonely me)

45 Minutes before my boarding time, I realized that I missed a folder of my important documents. OH my goodness, I was shocked and panic, how careless I am! I was telling myself not to forget my stuffs but still I left it out there. Realizing my carelessness, I quickly ran to the place where I left my stuff. There, I talked to the immigration officer and he tried to help me out of my trouble at the end. He called and checked my documents at the security office in the airport and it was there! My documents are safe *_* How lucky am I! I thanked God for letting me out of this trouble. I could board just in time to my last destination. An hour of trip me bring me to Fresno.

Do you know what my first impression to Fresno was? FRESNO is HOT! When I arrived it was about 104F which is almost 40C. It’s considered as one of the hottest city in California because it located in the valley of California! I felt like burning my skin under the sun light even when it was around 4pm. Ms. Linda is the one who picked me up in the airport. She is a volunteer for arrival assistance for new international students. I was so glad that when I walked out from the plane she was there waiting for me with her warmest smile. She hugged me and welcomed me to Fresno. Somehow I felt so bad that time because she helped me to carry my heavy suitcase. She drove me around the campus before she sent me to my new home.

I am home staying with an Indonesian American family in Fresno, my friend, ce inge is the one who found the house for me. The house is lovely, so does my room. I love it very much. I never expect to get that kind of lovely room. Everything is provided, furniture and even the rest room. It’s really good enough for me. My host, they are originally from the capital city of Indonesia, but they have been immigrated to America for more than 50 years. They don’t speak Indonesian with me, they speak English to me. It’s just occasionally I found out them willing to speak Indonesian with me, especially om ad. He never wants to speak Indonesian to me. But he is nice and adorable. That’s all I can say

the day i went away

It was on 15th of August, the day when I really have to say goodbye to my family and my friends. It was really a hard time for me. After I finished my exam and it was not a great exams! I had a barbecue with my friends in Subang and at that night we had say goodbye to Eric. I really HATE to say goodbye. I am wondering why there should be a farewell after a meeting. It's just really hard to understand. it's like a life and the death.
I just couldn't believe that finally it's the time for me to go. The time that i have waited for so long. I am going to meet uncle sam. After spending approximately 2 years in Malaysia, now i have to go to continue my study. The time flew like a blink of my eyes. it's just too fast!!
You know what? I was crying all over the time that night. I just couldn't stand anymore. I told myself to be strong, I forced myself to smile, everything is just the opposite! I AM WEAK.
After packed all my stuffs in two big suitcases and 3 hand carry, finally I was done. I wish I could spend those few worthy hours with everyone there. But I could not do so because most of them were having exams that day. It was just TOO sad.
so I spent my time writing letters and cards to my family and friends.
ceku was picking me up earlier because we wanted to have dinner before I go to airport. We had our dinner in Bondi. My favorite menu seems not delighted even it was! Because i had my dinner with my tears falling off. That was bad because I just ashamed my self. I am so childish!

No matter what i felt sad that time, messages were coming in to my phone and all the good bye and good luck wishes from many of my friends. That was really hurt me, because I was really not ready to say good bye. Lepi and tante told me that they would not sending me to airport because they have to prepare for the next exam. I was just so sad to know about that because I have not hugged tante before I leave Inti.

Even though I knew that they were telling lie, but i was just so tempting and I cried easily.
When I reached the airport, THEY WERE THERE! ALL OF THEM.
my friends from subang, all of my close friends in INTI. Everyone was there. it was around 27 of them.
Shu, Wisen, Fery, Chelsea, erna, Kitin, and Marco came from such a distance just to send me to airport. I was so happy and again i could bear my tears no more.
Lepi, tante, christine, meliana, dustin, arip, rio, nathan, edo, jerry, indra, iva, shu yi, kelwin, foo sean, setiawan, chin n also ceku...
EVeryone was there to send me off. I really thanked everyone for everything...
I was really touched. I can be strong because of all of you. Your support, help, care and many more!
I will never FORGET EACH AND EVERYONE THERE.
You are lovely. You are the best. I am so lucky that i have this precise CHANCE to know all of you.

Love u all.
wish me all the best in my new life in fresno.

Counting down

Another 14days left before I have to depart to the country of Uncle Sam. I AM EXCITED, but I just and I AM not sure whether i have ready to go or not!
There are so many things in my head:
- MY SOciology trial
( I don't care! no matter what, we have to win the trial. We have to fight until the end of the TRIAL! Because we come to win not to Lose the trial)
once the trial completed, I am sure that I will miss you guys.
thank you for putting so much effort in this trial..thank you for everything you guys have done.

- the coming of Final exam
I have not ready for my final exam..but I will do my best of it. I have to continue my preparation...


- MY FAMILY.
I AM MISSING them right now. I miss them all the time.
I can say nothing except I love you all.

-ceku
ceku...I WILL MISS YOU
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuuhuhuhhuhuuh..let me cry..let me cry

-my Friends
lovely friends! I will never forget you guys. Thanks for being such a nice,charming,and caring people.
I will bring our memories until the end of the time.


-preparation to fresno
i hope everything will be on the right track even though I still have so much things to do!

and many...
many
many more ..

and when I have to say good bye

Just couldn't stand..I was crying so badly and still and I don't know how to stop it right now. 8 days being with them was really sweet and unforgettable. They just gone for few hours but I can feel how tough it is right now.
love you mom, love you dad, love u sisters..I will surely miss you all.
Thanks for everything.

have to prepare my self for tomorrow test..
see ya! huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

ketemu keluarga tercinta besok! I love u all

yuhuuuuu..I miss my blog so much!
This is the only time left for blogging...
some missions have been completed over this week, I have got my visa, my ticket, and I have accompanied my brother's friends from China, and some more I have done for my SPSS project.
Overall, I just feel tired, but I am so excited!
My flight will be in the 15th of August at 10.30pm. I have to transit for five times to reach Fresno, From Kuala Lumpur to Singapore to Tokyo to San Fransisco and Fresno. I am scared that I will get jet lack! I am wondering that time, I am not sure I have ready for 100%, maybe the matter is just about the time because I really feel it's passed like a blown wind.
3 days trip with ati ge ge and tsuan tsuan cie cie was so nice, I won't forget that trip. They are so lovely, I wish I could have more time to accompany them one day! They are truly shopaholics! They shopped a lot and all are branded! like a blink of my eyes when I fetched them and sent them to airport. The time has passed again...
I have done my SPSS projects and now I have to study for the whole day (today) to prepare my self for the next test. My sociology trial's developments were so complicated, I have to cracked my head to think about the solutions! I won't be attending the class for the whole week start from tomorrow because I have a trip with my family. But I still have to follow the progression of my trial, I hope everything will be OK, especially my trip with my family, I hope all the plans will be all right. Jesus I lift up all to you!
gotta go study, see ya blogger!

desperado

Happy Saturday! Saturday will be ended again in 3 more hours. I think it will be a wasted weekend again. I really want to learn how to stop wasting my time because I keep wasting it if I have a spare time. Like today, suppose to study for Statistic, but I don't think I have done it perfectly. I did my assignment in behalf of my obligation, but I don't think I did it with the whole concentration.I just simply did it, without putting so much effort which I should actually do because I don't have enough time to prepare my self for the next test. Next week will be so path, some plans are progressing! This Monday I will be going to Wisma MCA to take my visa and I will spend the rest of the day in KL to do some preparations before my family arrival next week and to buy my air ticket. on the next day our club will be having mass celebration. So does Wednesday, I have to pick up my brother's friends in airport and accompany them for the next 3 days in KL. I guess it's a bit tough job for me, because none of them could actually speak English, so I have to communicate in mandarin with them with my limited Chinese vocabulary. I am scared that I couldn't catch up in the conversation, I really getting nervous now, but its challenge me too! Like what my brother told me before, be confident and just take it as practice so everything will be on the track. I surely will learn so much things from this trip!
After accompany them, the next 2 days will be the day that I have waited for so long! My family arrival in KL. I will not be attending my classes for the whole week. I hope that will be the nicest trip I have ever in my life. It will be my last trip with my family before I depart to America. Kind of sad to know that it's a true that I will never ever predict when will I have this kind of trip again once I go to America.
Cheer up my self! cheer up lien! your life must be going on, don't be so sad, don't be so disappointed, don't cry, just carry on your life! catch your dreams. I am so happy to know, once I feel so down, somebody will look for me, without me telling them that I need someone to talk to. It's one of the miracles that Jesus has passed to me, that what was in my thought. After so long, I didn't even contact with one of my high school's friend whom I used to talk to last time, he came and buzzed me. we talked and shared our stories, experiences, and dreams together. Thanks God that he really came to me on time, so I could feel much more better to continue my day. His suggestions, his words will always echoes in my ears, my mind and my heart. What a delightful conversation! "A hell of what people talk about you, as long as you do your best, because others might never know how hard have you been struggling!" I was stained by my tears when he said that sentence. I just feel that he really understand what I feel that time. Just a simple words I could say to him : "Thank you"
My life foundation is not hard enough to sustain my self to continue to survive, so I have to rebuild and reform my life's foundation for my survival!
I promise, I will. No matter how long I will be graduated, as long as I do my best in my study, everything will be OK. 23 years old was not too bad to get my Bachelor as long as what I do is the best I do as someone told me! Although I have to face the truth that My younger sister might be achieving her bachelor sooner than me and my friends might have a great experience in working force when I still studying. Come on lien, being late in completing your degree will never always shows that you are not capable! The next day will be harder than today, never stop work hard, ok?
10.10 pm. In approximately of next 11 hours from now will be the 6th month being together with ceku.
always and always love you

the D-DAY 26th of June 2008

Early in the morning 6.10 am, I was waken up by my alarm, without snoozing my alarm to continue my sleep, I reached my towel and took my shower. My heart was pumping so hard, finally it was the d-day, the day that I have waited for. I would be having my visa interview at 8.20am.I just feel that It was a judgment day for me, whether I can go to America or not will be decided after this interview. After dressed up myself, I went to Bus stop. I was going to embassy with tata, the time showed that we were going to be late, I really scared. Could we get there on time? I prayed, wishing that there would be no traffic jam and everything just fine. Jesus, never ever let me alone in any situations. He listened to me, I just arrived there on time. I just wanna wish Thank you to you God and thanks tata for calming down me when I was so panic.
When They called my name for my interview. My legs and my mind was like frozen.Once again, my fears occupied me. But thanks God, I successfully convinced the interviewer and he passed me a blue card.YEA222!! he asked me to collect my passport tomorrow.
I was so happy, that was bravo! finally, the way to USA is narrowed down, a little bit more to go.
but the bad news was I have to pay 60 bucks for taxi from KL central to Nilai because I didn't want to miss my Statistics class. I wouldn't miss my Statistic class without taking a taxi if the KTM works properly yesterday. They stopped the operations for 4 hours for the purpose of maintenance, by that time I would be late for my class.I cracked my head and decided to pay 60 bucks for my class! the good news, I was not late for my class.
Happily, I went to UPO and told Miss.Sri that I passed the interview. After that I got my self to work until 5pm.
The next 3 hours, I got my self again dressed up. Lepi and Erlina managed kind of farewell party for me (a bit hurry isn't it?) we went to BARCELONA. for the first time in my life, I stepped my legs to the club world in KL. I love the club, It is well designed, all the songs was nice, and all my friends danced crazily. OVERALL it was so fun!
really thank you for last night. Love you all.

gotta have my dinner,
see ya blogger.

some photos taken within this few weeks

lepi n me *_* idol elimination in sport hall.


chin and me . narzis mode ON!























afamosa exploration with my friends from khuntien.







it was taken during the street party!
my friends from Taylor college are coming to join
the party. HOHOHO

my great brother!

I really proud to say that I have such a lovely and adorable brother. The one who I always want to be and The one that who always motivate me. A talented and hardworking person, who never stop putting effort before and after he achieve his goals.
I really wish I could be someone like him one day as I wanted to thank him for everything that he has given to me. I PROMISE that I WILL work hard to chase all my dreams and never ever let the chances go from me. Although right now I am regretting about everything I have never done in my college life in INTI. I should have gained many experiences in organization that I DON'T. I only joined few organization and I only participated in a few events! how poor I am!
I should have improved my foreign language especially my mandarin that I DON'T. I just feel that I have wasted so much time...my time has gone and wouldn't be back.
Mean while my brother is the one who always spend his time precisely. He will never let his time to be wasted if he could! Time means knowledge for him, so he should gain all general things and stuffs that he don't understand. But he is not a NERD! he know well how to makes friends and he is friendly.
In a working area, I am sure his employees view him as a great boss as they called him as "TOKE", he always be a kind boss even though he won't be working together with his employees directly for most of the time. He is wise and flexible toward his employees, so his employees can easily talk and share with him. Lastly, an annual bonus trip will never be skipped by him, he will always appreciate the hard work of his employees by giving them a bonus holiday!
In my family, he is a backbone of my family right now. he has been funding me since I was in high school even though surely my parents still able to fund me and the rest of us. But he wanted to take over, so my parents can focus on the preparation of their retirement. You know? finally my mom and dad decided to retire by the end of last year, and now they are enjoying they life in khuntien with my lovely sister. He is the one who open a great wall for me to be a better person. I just want thanks you for everything you have done for all of us. We love You!


Not talking about others member of my family doesn't not mean they are not special,adorable and capable! BUT I just couldn't explain it in a simple way because my family is my life. I love you all...Special thanks to my Jesus Christ as I have been telling Him for my entire life, "Thanks Jesus for such a perfect family"
I LOVE YOU!

a lesson to learn

finally after a busy week, I can get my self to do my favorite work; blogging.
I don't like to talk about a rude things in my blog, but REALLY...
I am not feeling well today and absolutely I am NOT HAPPY today. Listening to the goodbye day-YUI can't help me stop the tears...
one thing that makes me smile today was just chatting with my sister and imagining my trip next 3 weeks with my lovely family.
a rude sentence ruined my day! I hate my ego, why it should cause me angry! even it's really hurt me, I should be able to stand by it.
when we talk, don't judge people! don't simply pick a conclusion if at the end it might hurt someone!
try to be a good listener, even though surely I know that I am NOT perfect. At least I try to do the best I can. If I really hurt someone, I just wanna say sorry.
Sorry might also NOT enough if we keep repeating the same mistakes all the time, what we need when we do a mistake IS to learn from IT, Not to keep ourself saying sorry and repeats the same MISTAKES! that way will absolutely be a better action that we can do.
thank to someone who willing to listen to me today, I really appreciate all your comments and helps because I feel better after I talked to someone (plenisalwaysthebest)
maybe I need a time to be alone right now. I am not ready to talk to you.I am so sorry....
It's a lesson to learn.
get it?

special for ceku

happy birthday ceku..happy birthday ceku..happy birthday..happy birthday..happy birthday ceku..
16th of June 2008, a special day for ceku, turn to 20 years old. You are getting old, so you have to be more mature and independent. I wish you an everlasting happiness and a bright future.
Always and always be a loving and caring person and the most important you have to know how to control your self, and success for your diet program..
ceku have always be nice to people around you..thousand of my prayers for you, I wouldn't be able to describe all here..
those stars will represent every single prayer of mine for you!


love u always
lien

STA Test

hi blogger, meet you again here, thanks for giving up your time to read my blog.
I am not having a good day today, I had my STA first test and I think I ruined my test. Kind of sad right now, I have been studying hard for this paper, but at the end I still can not do well for the test.Maybe what I did is not hard enough, so I have to work even harder, I couldn't imagine if with only 2 subjects I still can not do well for this semester.
Do you know? I have been trying to love this subject even I know that I am quite weak in math calculation, I don't want to let my hatred to this subject ruined up my CGPA. NO! NO MORE! as I did last time. I really hope, by working harder from today, I can make it.

The Happy news is that I got an email from my adviser in Fresno, she told me that she will manage everything for me, so I can get my new I-20 by next week. finally, 1 problem is solved, hopefully the next step will go steadily. Pray for me!
left taking photo, ticket and interview..another few steps to go, ganbatte lien!
missing home today, I don't know how my family trip will be.I wanna let myself just not think about it. another prayer, I hope that my lovely sisters can do all the exam well. All the best for you both!

ok I think that's about me today..not feeling well right now.hohohoho

take care

weekend

Happy weekend blog reader!! I hope you all have a nice weekend.
I could not say that I have a perfect weekend because number of events happened, sad, happy, crazy, careless, and stupid...
after work last Friday, I went to UPO and asked some questions to my adviser, I planned to study over this weekend and also finished up my VISA application, but I could not do so because some errors occurred and I don't understand why until I found the error today!
ended the Friday night without doing anything! Today, we planned a barbeque dinner, so wen went to GIANT this afternoon, preparing all the stuff needed for tonight barbeque.
I was damn tired after finished cutting all the spices, so I decided to sleep for a little while. I think that was a bad idea! right at the time I was in my dream world, my phone rang for many times and I didn't EVEN know~
I just feel that I seems like a sleeping pig.
my brother is the one who called me! I was really shocked and curious! I called him back, and he told me that I mistakenly typed a wrong birth date! what a careless me!
I was silent for quite long, regretting my mistake, if I did double check my application, it might not happened.
hukhukhukhuk...after ended the call. I was crying..as usual! I am a JERK!
I wish it's not happened, because it cause much trouble to me. I really feel sorry to my brother, and you know what? He didn't want me to feel sorry, he wanted me to learn something from that.
not to be careless and do finished something perfectly!
I don't know how to express my feeling at that time, koko..all I want you to know is that I really admire you! I wish I could be someone like you!
trust me, I will use the chances that you have given to me as well as I can, I will never let it burden me. I will try hard and show you that I really trying to use all the chances and never let them go...
I have to be someONE one day! because I dream so and I will fight for it, no matter how week and how hard I have to work! I will never stop trying. TRUST me.
koko, I AM PROUD OF YOU! THUMBS UP for my greatest brother!


anyway, thanks for all my friends, tonight was really a nice night...water battle always be our favorite game after we finished barbeque! hohohoho...
I LOVE YOU all so much..
I wish I can eat KImbab soon.I love it tante, lovely secret receipe and levi's LOMBOK for sure!
DAMN it, It even cause me CRIED!

will be uploading the photo when it's ready!
Ok?
hohohoh
good night, have to sleep now! I am going to church tomorrow morning! bubye!
catch up next time, see ya!

IDOL

hi blogger! blogging at midnight time always be the best choice, the time before I ended up my day! how are you today? I have been trying to study for my paper since last weekend (trying hard) and finally it's done: Sociological perspective test one COMPLETED! excited and happy to start my day after my first class and test this morning, I went to work until 5pm, the time where I nearly forgot that I have the class representatives meeting, luckily my sister reminded me about the meeting. It was my first meeting because it's my first experience becoming a class representative. That was a huge meeting, I guess INTI population is getting larger and larger every semester. INTI becoming more and more popular, doesn't it? It was a short meeting, where we were just listening to the speakers Mr.Lim ho peng and Dr.Sia, and we were just filling up the survey and the suggestion form.

It really long day I feel. do you feel so? I am happy, my persuasion about BALI is works, today, Miss Mala (officer in OAR) asked me to manage a trip to Bali for this coming November! I am really really happy. I opened back my Bali's diary to make sure that I have noted all the places that I want them to visit once they reach BALI. I called bro Rino, asked his favors to be a tour guide once Miss Mala and friends reach Bali. Just trust me that you will say BALI is WONDERFUL when you have stopped there! Anyway, I just feel that I really love planning something especially for planning a trip! I even have managed my family's trip this coming July. May it be one of my talent?

After I ended my conversation with bro Rino in yahoo, quickly I run to sport hall, I was worried that I might miss out my friends performance. And yes, I did.Unfortunately, I really missed Norio Marshall Sekeon's performance. I AM SO SORRY riooo..
happily I didn't miss out Randy's performance. we were spirited in supporting Randy, shouting out our support to him. we love the songs that he sang tonight, that was really beautiful, sweet voice randy!
come to announcement of the finalists quite disappoint me, none of them were selected to the next round, I thought Rio and randy have performed best! what a weird decision! I am not telling that other contestants are not well performed, but at least I wish at least one of my Indonesian friend will step to the final!

let it happens! no matter none of them step up to the final, I still proud and realize that they are talented! *_* Yes, Indonesian should always entertain better compare to.....
I don't have to mention that! I hope you guys understand. Hidup Indonesia!
below are some photograph taken while we were waiting for randy's performance! I thanked to all my friends that showed the spirit of Indonesia! WE LOVE INDONESIA. HIDUP INDONESIA!

stress MODE ON

hi blogger, it's 10.50 pm now.
I suppose to be doing my work right now, suppose to prepare my self for tomorrow class. But what happened to me?
I am doing nothing the whole weekend, instead of doing my assignment and study for my coming test, I wasted the whole weekend! What a bad me! regretting is not the right thing at this time,
I really wish I could study over this weekend, but I didn't do so, I couldn't fight against my mind and my laziness. What I did was just a waste. Keep booming my mind with stuffs that cause me stress up!
have I told you that I have received my I20! something that I have been waited for so long! Finally I could get it this week, I am happy and excited because I can proceed now to the next step, the next step which will be harder and more complicated, VISA APPLICATION!
I hope I can get my student visa within this month, I wish my hope will come true.
Beside VISA, another thought blocked my mind over this weekend! it's a happy news, but cause a terrible stress to me right now.
Am I over thinking about this?
I am stress thinking about my trip with my family this coming July. I am suppose to be happy right? YES, ABSOLUTELY I DO EXCITED. TRUST ME! I just over thinking about this, it's happened all the time in my life, cause my self stress with something that I shouldn't think too much about it!
I just wish I could have another unforgettable trip with my family because it should be the momentous trip for me, it will be my last trip with them before I depart to the State.huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu
What I want is just, I want my mom, dad, and sisters will be happy over the trip. no matter which places will be visited by us, as long as we stay and spend the time together. I don't even care if we don't go to Thailand.I don't mind even I have to skip many classes that I shouldn't be skipping!As long as all of them happy..That's all I need.

anyway, the last but not the least..for my lovely sister: love is on air! hahaahaha
for ceku: ceku I love u.
good night everyone...thanks for reading it!

May 2008- my last semester in Inti

Semester has started…it will be my last semester in inti, and I am taking only two subjects .Do you know? My time table is kind of great. 10 hours per week, so imagine I have plenty of spare time this semester. Instead of spending off my spare time by doing nothing and useless stuff, then I decided to work, I am working again, and again as student helper in OAR. Working in OAR is such a great experience, I learned how is the life of working man/woman and I also learned to do some simple works in the office like filing, sorting, opening new files, issuing card, photocopying, scanning, and many other simple works. I am quite satisfied although I earned 3.5rm per hour only because I am earning money now! I can get extra pocket money from my job, and some more I can spend the money for all the stuffs and things that I want to do and buy….

I might be working until the end of this semester if I could manage to do so! I really hope that I could have a great time over this semester before I go to America. I want to play more for this semester, spending my weekend with all activities that I love so! Of course, without letting my study goes unsteadily. Meaning that, although I wish to play more this semester, but still I have to do well in my study!! 50:50 I hope it will Gonna all right.

Anyway, I am taking Statistic 219 and Sociology 103. Statistic is one of the hardest papers for me, because I am quite weak in calculation! No matter how weak I am I will work for it! I will never let my self hatred this subject! I will try to enjoy this subject and I will give up my best for it. Sociology is another paper of Dr. Borges that I am taking! Meeting of Dr. Borges drive up my adrenaline! Really, that’s a truth! I skipped two of his classes in the first week, not because I want to do so, but because of my time table matter! It was clashing again and again so I have to drop my law class and add up sociology class to replace it. I hope I can do well for Borges paper again. The bad news is that another Trial is waiting for me! Hohohohoho I just hope everything will just gonna be all right…

my first blog

hi blogger! finally I successfully created my blog here!
hohohoho
I will be no longer update my blog in friendster! so check my blog out here, thanks.
Firstly, the purpose of this blog is to share anything about me to you! I hope I could meet more and more gorgeous people in this world who is willing to share with me.
Secondly, I hope by blogging I could get a better writing skills. I am college student with a poor writing skill!! ;d
I am happy that today is a weekend.I don't have to think about tomorrow, even though I still have to do my assignment after this!
anyway, thanks you for viewing my first post! see ya~

blog inspired by culuns markuz! makasih nak! ingat update blog mak mu juga ye!