desperado

Happy Saturday! Saturday will be ended again in 3 more hours. I think it will be a wasted weekend again. I really want to learn how to stop wasting my time because I keep wasting it if I have a spare time. Like today, suppose to study for Statistic, but I don't think I have done it perfectly. I did my assignment in behalf of my obligation, but I don't think I did it with the whole concentration.I just simply did it, without putting so much effort which I should actually do because I don't have enough time to prepare my self for the next test. Next week will be so path, some plans are progressing! This Monday I will be going to Wisma MCA to take my visa and I will spend the rest of the day in KL to do some preparations before my family arrival next week and to buy my air ticket. on the next day our club will be having mass celebration. So does Wednesday, I have to pick up my brother's friends in airport and accompany them for the next 3 days in KL. I guess it's a bit tough job for me, because none of them could actually speak English, so I have to communicate in mandarin with them with my limited Chinese vocabulary. I am scared that I couldn't catch up in the conversation, I really getting nervous now, but its challenge me too! Like what my brother told me before, be confident and just take it as practice so everything will be on the track. I surely will learn so much things from this trip!
After accompany them, the next 2 days will be the day that I have waited for so long! My family arrival in KL. I will not be attending my classes for the whole week. I hope that will be the nicest trip I have ever in my life. It will be my last trip with my family before I depart to America. Kind of sad to know that it's a true that I will never ever predict when will I have this kind of trip again once I go to America.
Cheer up my self! cheer up lien! your life must be going on, don't be so sad, don't be so disappointed, don't cry, just carry on your life! catch your dreams. I am so happy to know, once I feel so down, somebody will look for me, without me telling them that I need someone to talk to. It's one of the miracles that Jesus has passed to me, that what was in my thought. After so long, I didn't even contact with one of my high school's friend whom I used to talk to last time, he came and buzzed me. we talked and shared our stories, experiences, and dreams together. Thanks God that he really came to me on time, so I could feel much more better to continue my day. His suggestions, his words will always echoes in my ears, my mind and my heart. What a delightful conversation! "A hell of what people talk about you, as long as you do your best, because others might never know how hard have you been struggling!" I was stained by my tears when he said that sentence. I just feel that he really understand what I feel that time. Just a simple words I could say to him : "Thank you"
My life foundation is not hard enough to sustain my self to continue to survive, so I have to rebuild and reform my life's foundation for my survival!
I promise, I will. No matter how long I will be graduated, as long as I do my best in my study, everything will be OK. 23 years old was not too bad to get my Bachelor as long as what I do is the best I do as someone told me! Although I have to face the truth that My younger sister might be achieving her bachelor sooner than me and my friends might have a great experience in working force when I still studying. Come on lien, being late in completing your degree will never always shows that you are not capable! The next day will be harder than today, never stop work hard, ok?
10.10 pm. In approximately of next 11 hours from now will be the 6th month being together with ceku.
always and always love you